I’m back. I’ve granted myself the permission.

The universe will continue its course whether my intentions become manifest or not. But my little personal universe was shifted again, and my carefully laid out plans and expectations were thrown into arrears again. I am left to make sense of the scattered shreds.

I become a gatherer searching for my sustenance. Finding a new plant with a strange looking leaf, and taking it home with me not knowing what it is good for, but determined to find a use for it.

I guess that sounds rather drastic, but I’m trying to explain why my blog has been silent for so long. The expected 4 years in Australia were suddenly cut in half. So I am writing this at a friend’s table in San Antonio, my new local community, arriving here a few days ago.

Is this where I will be putting down roots and calling home for the rest of my life? I cannot be that bold. I thought I would grow old in Barbados and that certainly wasn’t to be. Then I thought it would be in Kerrville, Texas, but I wasn’t able to make that happen either.  I knew I wouldn’t be in Dallas or Alice Springs permanently, so I didn’t ‘settle’ in either place. But now, I am ready to put down a tap root and anchor myself somewhere. Time will show if San Antonio will be the place for that. But I’ve landed here with my awareness and my mind wide open.

Thank you for your patience and your belief in me.

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